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SCARED OF HEIGHTS
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Scared of Heights
Age 64, Williston, North Carolina, 2008
-- This is one poem, from my autobiographical series of poems, that I posted here at WriteSpike. Go to my Stories section for others. They are in chronological order. --
At Florida springs,
floating in shallows
I was suddenly above
a fifty-foot drop -
I caught my breath
even as I was holding my breath,
hovering in freshwater
clear as air
over the darkness
of a deep underwater cave
years later I would dream
of hanging above a river
at the tip of a crane
when my life choices had
put me out on a limb
like a roughneck steeplejack
walking the bare girders
of a high-rise under construction
I had a skeleton vision:
that digital photography could be like painting:
personal, subjective, expressive
yet my work had been met with ridicule
my essays dismissed as odd
and my vision seen as too heady
I had risked everything
to piece together the two elements
of my divorced family
my father a painter
my mother a photographer
if I could merge them,
I could be whole
now in my dream
at the top of a suspension bridge
I was in the wind
at the end of a crane's arm
with only slippery painted metal
to hold on to
yet there was a stillness
a simple beauty
as the threads of fate
were in control
always scared of heights
instead I felt a sudden freedom
que sera sera
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like a roughneck steeplejack walking the bare girders of a high-rise under construction
Love this! I can visualize it so clearly. The end leaves me wondering what changed, why is the narrator no longer afraid of heights. Thanks for sharing! -
You know how I feel about your poetry rick so lets leave it at that. What springs was this? I'm from central florida
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It was near Gainsville, south of it a bit, I think. Not sure, it was years ago.
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Well, it was a dream so dreams have their own logic -- but in the dream he became willing to accept his fate.