Submitted Date 01/04/2019

The books are stacked haphazardly in the corner of my apartment. They are not in any particular formation. Simply piled, one upon another, facing all sorts of directions. The support each other with their hard covers and bindings. Each filled with hundreds of thousands of words, so heavy, so thick. They are like building blocks, creating a structure that exists for no purpose.

Those books mock me.

"Why aren't you reading us?"

"Why don't you ever open us?"

"How will you ever get yor doctorate?"

I try to ignore them. "I'm just taking a break," I tell myself, "I go back soon, maybe next semester. It was hard being in school, I struggled to stay afloat in my studies. It is a strenuous, academic atmosphere there. I just needed a break. And it's totally normal. So many people take time off. I'll go back, I will, no matter what anyone says."

"Sure, you will," they say back, sarcasm in their voices. "Everyone thinks they will go back..."

"I WILL!" I yell. I have had enough of this. These stacks of papers and words bound together. I pick them all up and carry them outside. I throw them in the dumpster with all of my might. I stomp back upstairs to my thrid floor aparment. I slump down on the couch and think, "What is wrong with me?"

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  • Kiersten Felch 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    The pressure of the unread book, haha. It's okay to not have time to read the way you want to. Just instead think that you have friends waiting to be made instead of little horned devils harassing you.

  • Miranda Fotia 4 months, 3 weeks ago

    Ughhh...I have so many books that I have not found the time to read either since my daughter was born. She's 9 now lol. I used to read books all the time before bed, but since that is really the only time my husband and I have together, I choose to spend that time with him instead.

    • Ceara 4 months, 3 weeks ago

      Haha yes, it can be hard to find time to read, especially once kids are around!