NOT WHAT I EXPECTED

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Submitted Date 05/07/2019
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i guess you could say
i never wanted to be a mother
until i knew something was growing inside of me.

i'm that cliché bit of woman
who never wanted
a kid to deal with
this shitty world, you know?

but now that i have you
& your stupid toothy grin,
tongue hanging out &
hands grasping at my hair
(i had to cut it, thanks for that)
i'm not sure what life was
like before.

i liked to drink, yeah,
& go out walking at night
& read whenever i wanted
& spend days locked in bed,
depressed
& broken.

i'm not saying it's all good days
& sunshine
& teddy grahams

you're a piece of shit half the time
& your screams turn me tornado
& my emotions are
still as
volatile
as ocean currents

but
without you i am not sure
i'd smile
or welcome the day
in quite the same way
now that you're in the world.

 

 

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  • Carrie Lowrance 2 years, 7 months ago

    Great piece, Keirsten. I really liked it.

  • Tomas Chough 2 years, 7 months ago

    This is beautiful Kiersten. Very heartfelt. Congratulations!!

  • Ceara 2 years, 7 months ago

    This is so honest and relatable for so many women! Thank you for sharing!